The Truth Hurts

This week was a little harder for me to actually sit down, relax and read. I was so busy with trying to get all my homework completed before the weekend because we are celebrating my daughter's second birthday!! We have family coming into town and that makes it a little harder to do homework on the two days of the weekend that I do not work! Anyway, I completed most of it and still managed to make time to read for this week, although I had to stay up later than normal to complete that task. 

I was able to make a couple connections with the novel I am reading this week. Some were very frightening because you never want to think about detrimental events in life that you are unprepared for. I found myself taking special interest to the character Meredith. She has a family and runs her deceased fathers apple orchard. She has many struggles in this story because she has never gotten along with her mother. Her mother was not the caring type that hugged, kissed, or praised her children. She was always very distant and never understanding. I love my mother to death but she was similar. She seemed very distant sometimes and unable to understand what I was going through as a teenager and young adult. Her mother, my grandmother, got very sick with ovarian cancer when my mother was a teenager. She never really had a mother figure around when she was going through high school and shortly after she graduated my grandmother passed away. So, my mother never learned how to be a mother because her mother was sick all the time and was in and out of the hospital while my mother was in school. The story has really made me think about what kind of  mother I want to be to my daughter. In the story Meredith does the same kind of thing. She has two daughters and she calls them everyday and makes sure that she is always there for them. But her marriage is starting to fail because she is so wrapped up in how to take care of her mean mother that has been very confused lately, taking proper care of the apple orchard, and keeping her own motherly duties. She is facing so much that it has really made me think about how prepared I am in dealing with the death of a parent. I know that I will be taking care of the finances and anything in their Will but I have never discussed with them any specifics. I do not even know whether or not my older brother knows that I am the one they have chosen to take care of that stuff. There are just A LOT of questions I have in my mind about being prepared for their deaths even though I DO NOT want to think about it at all. But sometimes it is hard to face the truth of the matter because it hurts SO BAD.